Heartbreak … and the Purple Fop

purple | photo at pixabay

Why did I have to bl**dy well go and leave the earth.

OK – I got scared, scared of how desperate, broken I felt.

Last thing I remember thinking about myself was: ‘Oh for gods sake ‘Grow Up.”

Some eejit was being way out of order, throwing punches at me, and I got in a rage – I mean the eejit was doing my head in. So, I wasn’t being grown up! Don’t believe I’ve ever grown up.

And now I don’t know where I am, which is ironic, all my life I’ve never known where I am, so what’s my problem here!

Am I dead? Is this hell? This is one weird world.

Wading through stuff – not water – too sticky. It’s purple. Everything is bl**dy purple.

Not that I’ve got anything against purple.

Each to his own!

But hey, I’m a 21st Century 30 year old bloke. Wouldn’t wear it. Wouldn’t do the hair in it! Wouldn’t paint my bench in it.

I’m stuck, up to my armpits in this stinky, purply stuff, and now – the equally stinky purple stones are talking. To ME!

One of these talking stone nut jobs has transmogrified, morphed into a camp, fop type being. It’s covered, head to toe, reptile like, in shiny gaudy scales. Got a kind of human misshapen body, a human-ish head and something resembling a faceted face. Long fingers, fascinatingly like claws, long nails adorned with popinjay colours and bejewelled rings on each finger!

It makes a foppish sweeping movement with its hands and arms and bows to me – I think: eff off you tart.

It’s clicking its gaudy claw fingers, croaking in a wide spread slimy voice: “Good day, dearie, come to find yourself have you!”

Sally Stubbs



Invisible woman

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Allsorts came out of an exercise in thinking about an ‘Invisible Woman’ …

So they say

Men survey. Women are surveyed. Or so they say. Not Wilma, the Unseen Woman though. She is outside now, listening to workmen rebuilding the storm damaged wall, discussing imaginary conquests and what could be paraphrased as their bra sizes, simultaneously rolling stones into groups defined by their largeness. She goes downriver, where fishermen are comparing their catches both pescatorial and pectorial. She reaches the harbour. Here the ships are in and the sailors strutting. The talk is of salt, seaweed, barnacles and spray. Brandy and wild wide waves. Depth, and swell.

Wilma steps out of invisibility and enters the ocean.

Eileen Palmer


Road building in Poland, August 1961: Lost innocence

She melded in the Tatras.

The only girl, small, neat, bright and American, among a motley bunch of British students on UN vacation work experience.

Ostensibly road building, she lit up days off in the mountains and by the river.

We met, relaxed, in pre-Wall Berlin, about to ‘do good’, naive, self-important.

We returned, frightened, to find the Wall and armed guards.

Clinging to our passports, hers, being American, was most scrutinised.

She alone stayed calm.

We all had fallen for her.

Then she disappeared. 

She was called Ruth.

Charles Woodhouse



Where is my son? Handcuffed and swept,
Unwitnessed, from a street at dawn.
A hood over his head, the pressing gun
Butted against a mother left to mourn.
Jammed behind a passenger seat
Hearing only the engine’s growl,
And a passing siren that’s not for him.
An electric prod sparks, and naked
Howls leave sores exposed and weeping,
Whilst grief seeps through bones,
Turning my chestnut smooth to grey.
Everyday I visit this place
For I trust in you my Lord.
I listen to all the Government’s reasoning,
The lies fantastical – no one can quibble
Suffocate in fear and longing for truth.

Tanya Laing



The woman came to me for cutting.
My mother said NO.
I went back to school but nobody would speak to me.
Without cutting there will be no husband.
I didn’t understand.
We moved to a shack in the city.
My Mum cried. I cried.
At my new school the teacher took us to see a film.
A lady said that the cutting was bad for us.
Two of her children had died when they were cut.
The lady on the film was my Mum.
Her two children were my twin sisters Marti and Fatu.
Now I understand.

Dorothy Crowther


Invisible Woman

I dress ‘to kill’ in my feathers and skills.

Shimmering moonlight fills the bedroom. The stone walls glinting, reflecting movements of the river below.

I am cool and white like the moonlight, silky, smooth.

My naked body, cool in his hands.

Weightless, substance-less, I am about to float into space, a familiar journey. When he tries to stop me.

‘Open – your – eyes,’ he commands. He wants to see me.

My body is performing skilfully but I cannot open my eyes. I am only partly there have almost gone. Trapped in terror between the worlds of visible and invisible.

I always make my real self invisible …

Sally Stubbs


The First Time

The first time Tom saw Dylan, in 1965, there was already a buzz surrounding this young American songwriter. Queueing, Tom chatted nervously to the girl in front of him. Her A- levels, like his, were near. Once inside the City Hall she disappeared to the balcony.

Eventually Dylan was on stage and for about fifteen songs epitomised presence and lyrical virtuosity in equal measure. At the end of the best two hours of Tom’s young life he filed out for the last bus home, but under a streetlight, smiling, stood the girl from earlier. ‘I can hitch home’ he thought.

Colin Dixon


Invisible Woman

Act 1

Scene One

Sunday teatime table set, linen tablecloth, lace doilies. Best china polished off and gleaming. Homemade cake, scones and strawberry jam. Hot toasted teacakes run with butter.

Around the table animated talk between mother, father and teenage children. Love, laughter and warmth radiate.

Act 1

Scene Two

Sunday teatime table set, oilcloth. Crockery chipped and mismatched. Shop bought cake. Mother’s apron hangs forlornly on a hook. Father sits alone, children grown, seeds scattered on the wayward wind.

Act 1

Scene Three

Sunday teatime table set, linen and lace. Best china adorned with homemade fare. Everyone engaged in animated conversations. Mother seated centre table, heart and soul of the family.

Mary Younger



Colette knew they would be coming to claim another victim for Madame Guillotine.

Invisible in the background, never acknowledged, she was a shadow, a faithful, loyal wife. She prepared canvases, mixed paint, even painted whole areas of the portrait. He was the foremost painter of the day. The patronage of the nobility gone, he had fled to England.

The knocking on the door was insistent and she answered fearful for her life. Instantly she recognised the visitor. It was the leader of the mob who insisted she paint his portrait.

Colette became a fine miniaturist.

She divorced her husband.

Ros White


On becoming invisible

Don’t look for me, I’m gone,
but look in the morning shadow across the landing,
the sag of the bed, the dregs in the cup,
the living, breathing void,
a space in the air where my heart still beats.
So eat from the fridge,
and drink from the tap,
walk on the cinder path with bare feet,
hold on to everything,
and I’ll be holding too.
And when your hand slips across the sheet
one cold early morning, seeking warmth
let me meet it,
and let me carry you across the threshold.

Lorraine Mackay



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They say we’re a lovely family.

It’s dinner time.

As always, Mother shrieks: ‘Go wash those filthy, dirty, disgusting things immediately. How many more times! I will not tolerate dirt. Do you hear me?’

I hated Mother in those agonisingly repeated moments.

How dare she say to my little brother Michael’s hands: ‘dirty, disgusting …’

My heart seared, stabbed by the piercing knife of her viciousness.

Michael, every mealtime, carried to the washroom his fingers. Sweet, vulnerable little creatures, scrunched, quivering, hiding in his palms.

From across the immaculate dinner table I grabbed the knife and plunged it …

Sally Stubbs